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Despair lies between the abyss and the earth.

   It never appeared again.   I lost my former sky,   my own sky.   Its appearance was clear,   its color was blood red.   It was innocent yet fierce.   It would drag me into the abyss   because I no longer had   the courage to reach out to the sky   , nor could I spread my wings to it.   When it became a second earth   , it lost its original azure color.   When the sky became earth,   it became a second hateful world   , meaning that the last hope   was gone.   When the sky became a second earth,   you began to hate this world. You   no longer had a single wing   to spread. You gave up on this world,   despised everything here,   yet didn't want to be dragged into hell. You   could only struggle aimlessly,   not even knowing how long you would hold on. You   might fall at any moment,   but all you could do   was weakly struggle . You   didn't like that world , and you   didn't want to fall into hell.   You could only be stuck in the darkness in between   , despising the wo...

Watching the sunrise from Phoenix Mountain

   Phoenix Town boasts a natural Phoenix Heavenly Lake, attracting countless visitors eager to witness its sunrise and perhaps even spot the giant salamanders. In winter, snow sometimes falls on the lake. Phoenix's local specialty is Phoenix tea; wherever there are trendy people, there is Phoenix tea.   Around four in the morning, people are still sound asleep. The dark sky is dotted with only a few twinkling stars, and all is quiet except for the sound of wind rustling through fallen leaves and the chirping of insects.   The tea trees on the mountain smile in the darkness, silently attracting the dawn. The unpolluted natural oxygen bar provides energy to the tea trees, allowing them to live a more vibrant life and brew a richer, more fragrant tea for humanity.   Suddenly, a series of knocks on the door wakes me from my sweet dream. "Watch the sunrise! Get up quickly!" I hurriedly get dressed, wash my face, brush my teeth, drink a cup of water, and run outside to wait for...

You and me under the blue sky

   The sixth day of my teaching stint. I stared blankly at the sky over Wuchuan, Zhanjiang, occasionally spotting a plane taking off. I watched it streak across the horizon. This teaching experience, though not numerous, was unforgettable. The complexities of interpersonal relationships in the outside world are like the crisscrossing power lines above an old-fashioned alleyway—a uniform black, intermingled and indistinguishable. I didn't bother to distinguish them either.   The innocence of the elementary school students, their voices and eyes, felt like a baptism for the soul. Their curiosity about the outside world, their pursuit of knowledge, were like ours in the past. They would sometimes tire of the classroom, sometimes rest their heads on their hands, seemingly indifferent. Even when criticized   , they would only widen their eyes slightly. But their innocence meant that even after being scolded, they would still be smiling the next day, still as curious as ever, determined ...

Holiday Reflections

     Long ago, I thought that place was incredibly beautiful, a perfect place to live. But when I saw it with my own eyes, everything changed, becoming both familiar and strange. The PM2.5 level here is indeed very low, around 28, but the weather is unpredictable and volatile. Every day is scorching hot, the blazing sun baking the earth, showing no mercy. The weather here isn't just hot; it's muggy, making it hard to breathe. Occasionally it rains, and you'll see the sun rising while it rains. If it rains, it's a downpour, like water poured from the sky, quickly forming rivers. However, it doesn't last long. The vegetation here is exceptionally lush. Walking through the streets and alleys, you'll see towering coconut trees, their branches reaching out to the roadside, silently watching over pedestrians without leaving a trace.     As for work, I just want to write a note: In the quiet of the night, looking through the windowpane at others sleeping soundly, I won...

How do you feel about being pressured to have children?

 Today is a bright and sunny day in Wenzhou, with a pleasant temperature. Last night, Valentine's Day, I posted several photos of Mr. Chen and me together on my WeChat Moments, along with a long caption and a poem I wrote with heartfelt emotion: "I wish the rest of my life could be with you." Today, I received several messages on WeChat from my aunt. She asked if I had gone to Changsha to see my doctor for a checkup, and said that we needed to hurry up about having a child, as a child is necessary to maintain a couple's relationship; there can't be a love that lasts a lifetime. Frankly, my aunt's words reminded me of the New Year period when I visited Mr. Chen's family to meet his future mother-in-law and accompanied him to pay New Year's visits to his relatives. It also reminded me of my mother's insistence on not using contraception. The thought of both of us being pressured by our elders to have children makes me feel immense pressure. Now that ...

One day when I was twenty-one

 I've seen two people arguing on the street, and I've seen a boy carefully holding a girl's hand as they cross the street. But I've never seen you again . At 8:25, I stop on the other side of the street waiting for the traffic light . Occasionally, a man in his thirties stands beside me holding a child who looks only a few years old. Occasionally, I see white-collar workers rushing by, or students in school uniforms with ponytails slowly eating steamed buns. The red light on the street I cross always lasts 99 seconds. I always stop for several seconds at the 99-second mark. At that moment, I look at the people around me. The song "The Wind Rises" is always playing in my headphones. I've noticed that the people who pass me most often now are delivery drivers. I've seen people rushing around, and I've seen people frantically spilling their food. I once saw... A female delivery driver. She was supposed to deliver milk tea, but she spilled two cups. Sh...

There is a high level of self-cultivation called not blaming others when things go wrong.

1. If you can't put yourself in someone else's shoes, don't point fingers. There's a fable about a pig, a sheep, and a cow kept in the same pen by a shepherd. One day, the shepherd took the pig out of the pen, and the pig squealed loudly, resisting fiercely. The sheep and the cow, annoyed by its squealing, complained, "We're often taken away by the shepherd, but we don't scream like that." The pig replied, "Taking you away is completely different from taking me away. He takes you only for your wool and milk, but taking me away means taking my life!" In reality, everyone knows that true empathy doesn't exist. Many things are like drinking water; only the person drinking knows whether it's hot or cold. However, in the harsh realities of life, there are always people who speak without understanding the pain, arbitrarily judging others' shortcomings based solely on their limited experiences. Everyone is different; everyone has their o...

Chinese New Year in my memory

 As I grow older, some childhood memories gradually fade, but the scenes of Chinese New Year remain vivid in my mind, unforgettable. Back then, my family lived in a secluded valley at the foot of Riyue Mountain. Due to poverty, we ate only locally produced barley flour year-round. My mother, with her superb culinary skills, made incredibly delicious barley flour oil-fried buns. These buns, made with fragrant beans and barley oil, were perfectly shaped and nourished me and the people of that area. Every year in the twelfth lunar month, we eagerly awaited the 23rd day of the twelfth lunar month. On this day, farmers had a custom of offering sacrifices to the Kitchen God. On that day, we could change our long-standing eating habits, longing for those fifteen small stove cakes. In those days, resources were scarce, and food was in short supply. Even the barley flour oil-fried buns were barely enough to feed the family; there was no surplus grain. Every year during the off-season, my fa...

People who work alone are often very capable.

   Only by being alone can one be their true self. Being alone   is never awkward; one person is more carefree than two, more free than three. A solitary life offers ample time to do many things.   In life, we meet many people, experience countless joys and sorrows, and gradually understand that some people are simply not meant to be together.   Some relationships fade away, some feelings grow weaker, and fewer people remain by our side; few are left to confide in. Until one day, we realize that there is always a part of life we ​​must walk alone, and solitude is an essential lesson in our growth.   Being alone is also a lifestyle—not following the crowd, not echoing others' opinions. In the midst of a chaotic reality, we maintain our own character, facing reality with solitude and loneliness. In truth, they simply know more clearly what they want.   In this world, everyone has goals, ideals, and directions for development. Some paths may be walked with companions, but some must be...

Socialized Collaboration

   While high leverage has fueled rapid economic growth, it has also distorted industrial structures, leading to a divergence between price and value systems, ultimately suppressing the intrinsic driving force of social development. When economic growth fails to meet capital's expectations for the future, high leverage translates into high debt, and deleveraging becomes a transfer of debt.   Traditional economic logic outlines four deleveraging measures: first, reducing total social expenditure, including fiscal and household spending—essentially tightening the belt; second, restructuring debt to alleviate corporate difficulties, such as debt reduction, debt-to-equity swaps, and even defaulting on debt; third, redistributing wealth through anti-corruption efforts and various means of robbing the rich to help the poor, thereby increasing the unit value of social wealth; and fourth, continuing to print money to address weaknesses, balance industrial structures, and enhance public exp...

Summer Night

                              Summer nights              are the hottest and most vibrant of the four seasons. Spring is the time when all things sprout; summer is the time when all things grow; autumn is the time when all things wither; winter is the time when all things lie dormant. Therefore, summer is the most prosperous and vibrant, though it lacks the blooming flowers of spring, the fragrant fruits of autumn, and the snow-covered landscape of winter. Yet, its intense liveliness excites all things even more!   When the sun softens its harsh rays, weary birds begin to return to their nests, and the world seems less bustling than before. A gentle breeze rustles the leaves, as if saying, "The sun has finally set, it's so hot!" Everything seems more energetic than before, no longer listless. Even the grass stands tall, bidding farewell to the setting sun. Even the clouds on the...

A journey is like a poem.

 An ordinary journey        Hesitant and uncertain, I once embarked on a spontaneous journey, which can be considered part of the journey. I traversed wilderness, jungles, wheat fields, and rivers. After recording all these precious moments, I understood that the meaning of travel is not about a few people, but about a heart searching for the same direction. I constantly reflect on each stage of my life, and the result, like the roads I've traveled, is that each place has different colors, but the destination is a rainbow pieced together from the colors along the way—it requires careful cultivation, protection, and companionship! The neglected life is silently shedding tears.       It seems we often easily overlook the present moment, ignoring many beautiful times. Only after all that time has been wasted and squandered can we pull a particular segment from our memories, dust it off, and sigh that it was the best. What we can't see is often what's...

A Discussion of Zhuge Liang and Liu Bowen.

   Zhuge Liang divided the world into three kingdoms, Liu Bowen unified the country. Zhuge Liang was the strategist of the previous dynasty, Liu Bowen the strategist of the later dynasty. Zhuge Liang helped Liu Bei divide the world into three kingdoms, Liu Bowen helped Zhu Yuanzhang unify China. It seems Liu Bowen's achievements far surpass Zhuge Liang's. Zhuge Liang launched six expeditions to Qishan, but failed to restore the Han dynasty and destroy Cao Wei, a regret of his life. Liu Bowen, though he helped his lord achieve imperial power, died mysteriously in the eighth year of the Hongwu reign. Zhuge Liang's ambitions remained unfulfilled, Liu Bowen died with unfulfilled hopes. Both men possessed unparalleled talent and are models for strategists throughout history. In terms of self-preservation, Liu Bowen was inferior to Zhuge Liang. In terms of military talent, Zhuge Liang was inferior to Liu Bowen. Both men possessed extraordinary talent and the ability to turn the t...

A Discussion of Strategists in the Three Kingdoms Period

   The Three Kingdoms period was an era of brilliant strategists, with Wei, Shu, and Wu each boasting outstanding advisors. Cao Wei had Xun Yu, Xun You, Jia Xu, Guo Jia, Liu Ye, and Sima Yi, all possessing extraordinary talent. Shu Han had Zhuge Liang, Pang Tong, Fa Xiaozhi, and Liu Ba, all exceptional talents. Eastern Wu had Zhou Yu and Lu Xun. Yuan Shao's advisors included Tian Feng, Xu You, and Ju Shou. Lü Bu's advisor, Chen Gong, also possessed the talent to govern the world. The strongest among them were undoubtedly Jia Xu, Zhuge Liang, and Xun Yu. Jia Xu possessed the extraordinary abilities of Zhang Liang and Chen Ping. Zhuge Liang was known as the "Sleeping Dragon." Xun Yu was called a reincarnation of Zhang Liang by Cao Cao. These three were no ordinary individuals, demonstrating their exceptional wisdom and strategy, surpassing that of other strategists.

My Ordinary 20 Years

   In January 1998, an ordinary mother became pregnant with her second child. During the prenatal checkup, the doctor relative didn't explicitly say whether the baby was a boy or a girl, but the parents, who were still unborn, already knew.   The preference for sons was still deeply ingrained in the older generation. While the whole family was making ample preparations for this "boy," on November 18th, a baby girl with a boy's name was born. Perhaps because they had prepared in advance, or perhaps because they had resigned themselves to their fate, the father, who was still bothered by the fact that his firstborn sister was a girl, doted on this newborn baby who weighed just over six pounds.   It's said that children from poor families are easier to raise, but I was weak and sickly from a young age. Even in third or fourth grade, I only weighed 30 pounds, my face was thin with prominent cheekbones and sunken eyes—in our local parlance, I looked "unremarkable....

Heartbroken

   The torrent of society can only make the beautiful shine brighter.   —Epigraph Closing   Jia Yi's "Ode to the Owl," the lines "Gathering and scattering, news and fortune, how can there be a constant rule? A thousand changes, ever-changing, without end!" lingered in my mind. Indeed, the world is ever-changing, but the only constant is "eternal change and innovation." The innovation we often talk about is actually hidden in our choices and respect for tradition.   Not long ago, to cope with the immense pressure of the college entrance examination, my classmates and I went to see "Song of the Phoenix." The film tells the story of how, after a person dies, they are evaluated using suona horns—two for the morally mediocre, four for the average, eight for the superior, and only the most virtuous and respected are entitled to the "Song of the Phoenix." It made me think deeply. In this materialistic society, tradition seems to offer some...

Reverence for life

   Humans, as the most intelligent animals on this blue planet, have gradually become the masters of this lonely island adrift in the vast universe, holding the power of life and death over any other species.   Sometimes, humans are even more greedy than gluttons. The beautiful fur of animals is used by humans to wrap their own frail bodies; the strong bodies of animals are used by humans to fill their own bloated intestines. Humans can shamelessly call insects beneficial to themselves "beneficial insects," while insects that cannot be exploited by humans are classified as pests. Every year, humans ruthlessly exterminate these so-called pests. But they are also part of this planet, they are also its masters. Yet the reality is like the old-fashioned landlords forcibly seizing the land of peasants, forcing the victims to do hard labor for them. Even the slightest loss can lead to annihilation for the peasants.   Humans are tyrannical robbers! Arrogant and blatant murderers! If...

A toast to the past, no matter how much I love, I will never look back.

   I.   We all thought Xiao Qian would be the first among our friends to get married.   We all called her Xiao Qian, but actually, her surname isn't Qian.   Her name is Qi An'an, which is originally a very nice name, but when pronounced quickly, it becomes "Qi Yi An—Qian~". To show everyone's affection for her, the name Xiao Qian stuck. She herself likes this name very much because her boyfriend's surname is Jin.   "Look, I'm Xiao Qian, and he's Jin. It's destined that we'll be together!" Every time she talks about this, she blinks her big eyes, her round little face full of excitement.   In our eyes, finding Xiao Qian's boyfriend, Mr. Jin, is a blessing from several lifetimes.   Because Xiao Qian is so capable and considerate. When we go out to eat, she sits gently next to Mr. Jin, pouring water and wine, setting the table, handing him tissues and ashtrays...   Mr. Jin is practically waiting to eat.   The key is that Xiao Qian is...

The lingering scent of spring

   Gently, I awoke from my slumbering dream, a dream filled with a sweet, watery beauty, a smile imbued with the fragrance of newly sprouted blossoms. This dream wasn't enough; I lingered, unwilling to wake. But then, as if kissed tenderly, I slowly opened my sleepy eyes. A soft ray of light pierced through my slits, warmth instantly flowing through my body. This familiar feeling, experienced through countless cycles, how could I forget it? This spring, so full of unforgettable emotions.   I stretched, then left my beloved bed, drawing back the curtains that let in boundless light. It was beautiful, so very beautiful. I seemed to hear the chirping of morning birds, and unconsciously recalled an old poem: "Spring slumber unaware of dawn, everywhere the birdsong; last night the wind and rain, how many flowers have fallen?" Alas, there was no spring rain last night, otherwise, I could have counted how many flowers had fallen. The flowers on the windowsill were in full bloom,...

Random Thoughts

   A cup of clear tea, its aroma lingering.   Gazing at the few remaining pages of the calendar on my desk, reflecting on the fleeting years slipping through my fingers, my restless heart gradually calms.   The days that have passed have become a wealth of memories in the hustle and bustle of time. In fact, memories are a good kind of fulfillment, a seasoning for life, making the present more flavorful. I like to reminisce, especially when I'm alone. My thoughts drift away with the wafting aroma of tea. I go back to my childhood to see my friends playing with spinning tops on the river, to the alleyways of my hometown to see the villagers chatting and laughing over their meals… Memories sometimes fill me with fulfillment, but sometimes they fill me with sorrow. So many "scars" of life meet my young heart again, but at the age of forty, tears have dried, and a sip of tea is enough to swallow them down.   So much sunshine, so much wind and rain, have been sealed away in the...